I’ve been thinking lately about mindsets. I’m not sure what’s spurred it on, but it’s been digesting in my mind quite a lot lately.
If you ask anyone who’s known me more than a minute they could tell you I am stubborn. (I’m sure they could tell you much more as well) One thing I have an extremely difficult time doing, is admitting I am wrong. I’ve learnt how to stand my ground even after someone has presented an excellent argument to negate mine. Sometimes I actually choose to disregard this information just for the internal satisfaction of being, my version of, right. I know, how idiotic, but who’s to say that they themselves are without quarks.
The thing is I’ve found that some of the things I know as right…. Are not. Not because I’m convinced of it entirely, but more because I can explain it fully.
I’ve entered into a new season in my life where I’ve allowed someone from the outside world to become an integrate part of mine. The interesting challenge to this is trying to balance the things I’m sure of with the things she is. We are both so sure of that we are correct in our own respects that I find myself forced to search my mind for the reasoning behind my decision.
To put it another way I’d say this. Think of the world of mathematics, I often do, you can go through an equation on a calculator and get the anwer read out to you and suddenly KNOW that you have the right answer. But do you truly know what happened through the calculators computer chip to output the answer. Do you know the source, or could you really express to someone in detail what happened between point a and point b?
I may know I’m right, but do I know that because someone showed my the answer or because I know how to find the answer?
Simply put what I’m saying is this. Just because your initial instinct is to think one way, to feel one way, to act one way, why does that initial instinct decide what is truth.
I can often feel threatened or worried, and later realize my idea of reality is simply been colored by what is truly going on.
I fight not the thinking of the world, but seek for the justification of my current thinking to enable myself to think bigger to dream larger and not be held by the confines of my mind.
Don’t let your initial rule your reality, seek for understanding, because you may begin to realize that you are cheating yourself out of a more enriched life.
